"Because i am conceived"

FEB 20 2006
I noticed him.He was all dull and brooding for past 1 week.
Ishara was his close friend for more than 3 yrs.
Me and Shanti were determined that no other girl can be our bride.She was perfect.She was beautiful.She commixed tenderly with our family.

Shyam and Ishara are made for each other.They never told us about their relationship and we never told them abouth our wish.Sounds crazy..may be this shows the heights of understanding we have.

Not even a single day passed without her call to him.But now It was hardly a month since she rang him up.Shanti was all upset and we determined to speak to Shyam.
I came home early and Shyam was before his laptop.
I called him.
"Yes Dad"..
Shanti with all her restlessness said "We wanted to speak to you regarding Ishara"
"No mom.I dont want her in my life."
Silence.
I asked "But Why Shyam.You liked her"
"Yes Dad for 3 years.But i hate her now..i hate her.."
I saw lots and lots of frustration in his eyes.
He continued "She stayed a whole night in Nishants room"..

Heavy rains forced Ishara to stay there.She tried utmost to come home after the party but she couldnt.
I spoke mildly "I know about Ishara.Common Shyam.Are u Crazy...and she is"
Shyam interrupted and yelled
"Dad dont speak a word about her.Every one are advising me the same"
then he said
"Ok let me ask you the same question i asked them.Just swap and be in my shoes.Will you accept her?"

I stayed silent.

Looking out the window i said "Shyam,how many days she has stayed in our home with you.Did we ever asked you on that.Hmm..yeah its because we trusted you both.And same was with Ishara's parents."
He listened to me.
I paused for a moment and turned looked at his face and said "The trust we all had
on you is mortified.I feel disgraced to have you as my son.." and I stopped abruptly.

I could see tears rolling down from Shyam..He wiped it in a wink.And took his bike key and rushed out saying "I am going to meet Ishara".

I looked at Shanti.She gazed at me.I know what was up in her thoughts.
"Where is Navin" i asked about my second son.She did not answer me.I know she needs sometime to hark back.

Approximately 25 yrs back...

Me and Shanti were having a walk.She was back from her 5 months training.
i proposed to Shanti "I missed you these five months.I want you through out my life..i want to marry you"
I strongly believed she too loves me.
She cried loudly and people stared at us..she wept and said "I also wanted..but i cannot".
Suddenly i felt i lost life in me..i was walking dead with her.
I asked "Y da"..
She said "Because i am conceived".
suddely i saw ppl fleeing to nearby shelters..it started raining..

I thought i would end the blog here..but after lot of thought process added the line below..
It happened at her training.I tried hard to make her forget the brutal incident.Married her.We decided we will not abort Shyam.