Something very true happend recently.And something that begs time(long..) to heal it.
Most of you might not have felt the pain of this.I had felt through my closest kin.
Pain of something you lose which is precious.And you actualize it was even more precious when you loose it.

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It was his birth day, 26th one.Woke up early.And waking up early is'nt new to him coz he never sleeps deep these days.Day apeared dull and dispirited.

"Happy birthday Ramesh" said the voice.
"Seri ma..time achu..is hot water ready" asked ramesh not ready to come out of the morning laziness.
"Ya..go take bath and breakfast is ready.Don't lay in the bed get up..up up quick"

Ramesh stood near the window.Tears rolled and he started getting ready to work.
Made some quick bfast and found there is no time to heat water.Took bath in cold water.
He wanted to push this day to close.His bday rolled slowly in pain.
"Hey Ramesh wats the plan for Diwali" asked Moorthy and he straightaway added "hey sorry man, take care" and left the place.

Ramesh heart stopped for a moment when he heard that its going to be diwali in few days.Ya Diwali in few days and there are lot of festive fun season to come there after.
He cant face those days that are meant to be happy.He cant be happy,memories will kill him.He wanted to run to a world where there is no such festivals.

It was 9 PM when he returned home.His brother had got some cake and said
"Anna happi birth day".
They hugged each other,but in tears.

They got into bed and slowly started to sleep.And the day faded away as clock struck 12 midnight.

His first ever birthday, without the wish from his mother, came to an end.

Post Script:
I cant wish him "Many more happy returns of the day".I didnt wish him this year.
But i can pray(deeply) that almighty to return the happiness to them by any possible means.

Paradise of Trust Hope and Realness - 4 (Final Part)

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Claps and a round of applause filled up the big auditorium.
Anjali gladly accepted the award and was smiling at the audience.
"Thank you sir" she said looking at ChiefGuest ,when he pecked at her cheeks.
She showed the certificate to the audience it read "First prize - Recital competition "

She limped towards the stairs off the stage.Anjali suffers from Partial paralysis by birth.
It made her right leg to be paralyzed and non functional.

ChiefGuest took over the podium and said
"My heart full wishes to Anjali.Wishes for her bright career and let she win many such competitions in future.I admire at her self-confidence despite her physical challenges.
And most importantly i want to thank her parents and they are the ones who are also to be admired at.Having a child with special needs is definitely a very challenging aspect of parenting.And it probably involves immense ultimum of strength to carry on with life and give such children a meaningful existence, nurturing them to evolve as competent individuals and definitely make the world a better place to live in.Kudos to them.They are truly heroic !!.May i have them come up to the stage" .

Anjali called her parents by signaling using both her hands.
Sanjay and Shruthi walked up to the stage.Shruthi cannot control her tears.
There were big applause for them from the crowd.

It was 10 PM and the happy family was driving back home from the school.
Anjali slept and their car audio was melodizing  Nandala - Onnukoonu

Shruthi sunk in to deep thought back her seat and in the memory lane of her abominable pregnancy period.

She was not able to do anything with her mysterious preganacy.As the whole family including sanjay's parents came to know about it.She has to continue it and every day of her pregnancy passed with confusion and filled with sorrowfulness.She prayed that no other woman should land into a situation like hers.

It was their regular check up in the second trimester.Doctor Padma was very disturbed after the ultrasound.She called the parents inside her room,

Padma in her low tone said "As i said in the last check up.It is confirmed now.Yes there is a 90 % chance of paralysis on the right leg for the baby.Am really sorry to say about this.Its up to you to decide if you want to continue with the pregnancy"

That evening."Sanjay.Can you take me to temple" requested Shruthi.They entered the temple and Sanjay sensed that Shruthi wanted some time private and he went around the temple.

Shruthi sat in front of the idol and thought to herself.
"Is this how i should payback for all the sin i did.Its all my mistake and why should the little one suffer".She cried out loud.She wept and sat there silent for few min's.Suddenly she stood up wiping her tears off her cheeks and clearly cerebrated
"Am not going to abort the baby ,and do another sin.From this moment i would give anything that takes to take care of it.Am least bothered if it takes my life to care for it.I do not care to worry about who the father would be.All that i should know is "Am the mother""

Suddenly the car stopped bringing Shruthi back to the present."Need to pump in some fuel" said Sanjay.
At this time Anjali woke up and asked in a tiresome tone "Mommy are we home yet".

"Not yet dear.We should be in another few mins.Why don't you sleep"
Sanjay got in to the car when Anjali asked "Daddy.Remember you promised me that you will take me to 'Avatar' tomorrow."

Sanjay said "Sorry da.We will go next week.Daddy got some meetings"
Shruthi added "Yes dear.Daddy is a busy engineer" and smiled.
Anjali in her little angry voice "I hate you daddy and I hate engineers.When i grow up i wont become an engineer." she frowned.
Sanjay while turning the wheels asked "Oh ok.What do you want to become when you grow up then?"
Anjali replied "I want to become a Physio Therapist.Like our Ed uncle and help all the kids with broken leg.Same like he did for my broken leg." and smiled at them.

Silence.

Tears rolled.This time it was from Sanjay.

-The End-

Paradise of Trust Hope and Realness - 3

PreScript :
Please read through previous episodes at Previous Episode
Was listening to Call me dil while scripting

Ed and Shruthi lurched towards her apartment.
Ed said "Now this is the logical end" and added quickly"Stop.stop being mushy mushy.We depart as good friends as agreed 4 years back"
Shruthi dramatically controlling her tears and feebly said "Ed.Can you come in for a cup of tea.Probably a last one"Ed looked in to her eyes.He could sense it satiated with gloominess.
He said "As you wish".

Shruthi went straight up to the kitchen and started up the stove in simmer and tossed a pan of water on to it.Came back to the living room and saw Ed already opening up the Chardonnay.

"I know this would happen so i had one ready in my bag" smiled Ed
Shruthi "Hey i have a flight to board at 6 AM"Ed obliged and added up to the sentimentality with his nice words "One last time"

"Cheers for lovely moments and feelings that we shared for all four years."
Soon they started to get on to the wine forgetting about the pan of water in the stove.

Shruthi had a extra glass breaching her habitué alcohol quota of steadiness and soon was flying off the ground.Ed again opened up a small Scotch that he was carrying and they had it real raw.

They were cuddling each other in a couch and started to kiss each other.
The stove finished its job of heating up the pan in the simmer,now the water started to boil.

Ed aided Shruthi to get off her attire.He for the first time felt her bosomy hip and quickly covered themselves with a blanket.Hot steam egress out of the pan and with in 10 min's the last few drops evaporated with a hissing noise....
After 3 hrs,Ed woke up and left a note and lovely card in Shruthi's handbag.

It was 4 AM in the morning.Shruthi was staring at the Pregnancy tester stick.
Tears rolled out with nobodies request and she read the old note from Ed one time again
"Hey dear, these four years were the wonderful and best days of my life ,you made every moment so precious for me to preserve and  cherish back,you were my best friend ,a well wisher ,philosopher ,inspiration and now leaving you to your wish and will.
Can never forget this night in my life"
-Your Ed

Without further thoughts she called up Ed.
He said "Hello.Hey Shruthi.Never expected a call from you so soon.how are you and Sanjay"
Shruthi wept and explained him the complete situation.
Ed tried to calm her down when she cried "Its not your fault.Its me.Am selfish and out of control.Am not right .."she wept.

Ed  "I have a strong hope its not us.From what you told one your LMP and the phase you were in when it happened between us" he paused and added " was before the fertile period of yours"

Ed in his doctors tone added
"Listen later in  pregnancy blood samples cab be taken from the mother, baby and the man thought to be the baby's biological father can then be tested for DNA fingerprinting and in a large proportion of cases can prove whether Sanjay is definitely the father.It is technically possible for a blood sample to be taken from a baby whilst it is still in the womb."
He paused  for while, both remained silent  and he added
"But I really doubt that doctors in India would agree to take such a blood sample for you, knowing that the result may cause you to terminate the pregnancy even though the baby may be normal and healthy. Nevertheless, I hope and believe its not us" 
"You hope."she smiled and paused and added "This is head-spinning.I cannot handle this anymore.I need to rest for sometime and think about this.Will call you later" she hung up and was severely confused.She felt terrible with her situation.She was angry on herself.

She perched herself on the bed for a while.She thought that she cannot to do this alone she needs someone by her side.After a lot of thought process decided to call Sanjay and dialed his number quickly.He did not pick up.She tried again but in vain.She cried out louder inside her bathroom walls.

"Hey Shruthi are you alrite" checked her Father as he felt someone screaming.
She looked at herself in the bathroom mirror and managed to reply in a clear voice "Dad.Am fine just not able to sleep"

Washed up and came out of the bathroom saw her father sitting in the couch.
"Hey Shruthi.Want some coffee" asked her Dad.
"Haan Ya dad .And also am going out for walk in the beach"
"If that makes you better " said her father

She tried to call up Sanjay again for one last time,he picked up.

"Hey Sanjay.Need to talk to you its important"
He replied "Shurthi is everything alrite.Sorry was tired and i was.."
Shruthi interrupted and said "Sanjay.Looks like am pregnant"
Sanjay smiled to himself but reacted and acted "Are you sure"
She said "We need to check with hospital and do something straightaway"
He said "Hon.Am not sure what to do.Still its only, two months for the marriage.Why do you panic.You know about me and i am.."
She interrupted and said "Stop the bullshit.Will meet you at the hospital 9 AM"

Shruthi was on her way to the hospital as her auto rickshaw stopped for while to fill in the fuel tank.
She called up Sanjay but his phone was busy for the past 20 mins.She was too nervous and called up Ed.Again in vain.
She quickly sent an SMS to Ed "Thought about it and i cannot take a chance :(.Am going to hospital.Will call you later."

Shruthi got out of the auto rickshaw and started to walk towards the hospital.Sanjay was standing near the hospital reception.

She yelled at him "Who were you've been calling when you know i will be calling you back."
A voice interrupted and said "He was talking to me da" and Shruthi turned and looked back to see her dad standing.She looked at Sanjay and that look in her eyes sympathized the exact words "Why did you do this to me" .
Silence.She couldn't control and with a outburst embraced her dad.
Sanjay said "Shruthi,pls understand.Trust me this will pass"

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Paradise of Trust Hope and Realness - 2

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Raining heavily.Shruthi was looking outside the big glass window from Priya's Kitchen."What a lovely view you have from the kitchen.Sure will make your cooking a pleasant experience di, from here"

"Its still 2 months to go di.Why are u giving it so early" asked Priya looking at the pinkish wedding card that Shruthi handed over.
"Haan.Ya had to print it early as i need to give to friends in UK." said Shruthi
and added"When will your hubby come home"

Priya sighed "it will be around 9 PM when he comes.Then eat sleep.Life is not so exciting di.Guess its so eventful for you.From school times i never knew you grew to be such a romanticist di.You gave that silent look all the time and now i understand how looks can be deceiving." they both smiled
and Priya added "Alrite.Now back to business.What happened with Ed then"
"Priyaa.I told you earlier its a little episode of friendship ,caring and little beyond that.But cannot convert that to a committed one" said Shruthi."Still i miss him a lot.We girls are born to
suffer such emotions"

"Hmm.Its all in your hands and how you decide the life to be.Dont blame the feminine gender for that.Seri ok howz Sanjay" asked Priya as she took out the hot cup of milk from the microwave and started mixing it with coffee and sugar.

"Ya i had good time with him.He is so amusive and i forget everything when i am with him.This past 25 days he made me live every moment.We had loads of fun roaming around the city." excited Shruthi

"Tell the truth di." paused as she took a sip of he hot coffee Was it plain vanilla or any hot fudge to top it" winked Priya
Shruthi blushed and paused and sighed "He was so obligating and had to let him add some fudge to it"
Priya cried "You rascal" took a pillow and threw at Shrituhi.
"Dude you blush now when i ask that and you totally blame him" exclaimed priya

Both started to smile and continued to laugh out louder.

"Her charisma is incredible.Assurance exudes from her every pour.
I look into her eyes and she makes me melt inside." Sanjay poetically described about her to the drunken group.

Kumar added some ice and poured some lime soda to Sanjays highball glass.Bar tender got them some ice cold kingfisher beer alongside with full chicken tandoori,some cocumber salad,masala papad and bolied peanuts.It was a feast in front of them and the bachelor party continued.

Fattest of his friends added "Ok guys bottoms up for Sanjay.
Also wishing that he spends the same quality time with his friends after getting married too"

They all left the bar happily.Sanjay pushed himself on to his bed.
It was 6 AM in the morning his mobile phone was crying aloud for the third time.And this time hard it reached Sanjay's boozed out ears.He picked it up it was Shruthi

"Hey Sanjay.Need to talk to you its important"
He replied "Shurthi is everything alrite.Sorry was tired and i was.."
Shruthi interrupted and said "Sanjay.Looks like am pregnant"
Sanjay smiled to himself but reacted and acted "Are you sure"
She said "We need to check with hospital and do something straightaway"
He said "Hon.Am not sure what to do.Still its only, two months for the marriage.Why do you panic.You know about me and i am.."
She interrupted and said "Stop the bullshit.Will meet you at the hospital 9 AM"

Within few hours,Shruthi was on her way to the hospital.
She took out her mobile from the hand bag she was carrying and typed a quick SMS
"Thought about it and i cannot take a chance :(.Am going to hospital.Will call you later."
pressed the send key when it read "SMS sending to Ed"

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Paradise of Trust Hope and Realness - 1

Shruthi handed over one her last invitation to Gaurav and said
"Please come and grace the occasion"
It was 5 PM.She knows its time to leave work place one last time.
Kevin got off a long meeting and came out
"Ok guys lets jump in to CR08 conference room"

People gathered.A white iced and sugary rose topped cake was waiting for Shruthi.
The whole team gathered in.
Pat came in and everybody stood up ,rustles over the room.Pat is the overall manager of the implementation team for FedEx in Manchester.Few words that would best describe him - compulsive, determined, single, moody.It was a surprise when he came in for the send off party of Shruthi,which generally is not few of his can do list.

Shruthi - South Indian born and living in UK for the past 10 years She did her masters in London universtiy.
And working with Fed Ex as a Team lead for the past 7 years.After repeated compulsion from her family back home she is bound to get married to Sanjay.
She had been a committed resource and a dependable friend.Most of the time displays serenity and calmness.Its indeed a impossible effort to figure what she is up to in her thoughts.A very first look of her would attract resplendent peace in your hearts.Her smile would make you sigh with contentment.

Sanjay - Average India born male.Good looking and has a good sense of humor that keeps him advantageous among friends circle.Has a younger brother.Works as a Production Manager in a renowned Automobile company branched out in Chennai,India.Not much in to romancing or date out with girls.Has a very average academic records.Its been a while his parents started to look out for bride.He is jaunting in his own pace in cloud nine for the past few days after getting engaged with Shruthi.

Pat said "Shruthi ,you have been a valuable and committed resource that the team will be missing.All the best"Before the claps fade out he vanished the scene.Every one spoke few lines about Shruthi.It was 5:30 PM
With a heavy heart she stepped out of the work place and headed to the tube station.She has been comuting this tube line for the past 7 yrs.

Mobile alerted - "Dad" calling.
she picked and said "Dad did you not sleep.Is everythign alrite"
Dad replied "Am good da.Wanted to check if its all set for your travel."

Shruthi's Dad - The truest,most sincere gentleman.As to any girl, he is a hero for Shruthi as well.Life had dealt him some rough,challenging cards,yet that has not reduced his character at all. As said any one can make a child but it takes a man to be a father.

After exact 20 min's she got out of Heaton park.
Ed was waiting there for her.She rushed towards him.Stood there ,tears rolled on her lovely eyes.She wept and whole world would want to console her when she cries.Her weeping is also beautiful

Ed - Born in Britan.Young physical therapist.Life would seem much simple and easy if you are with him for sometime.Highly practical and fun to be with.He has been a very good friend and well wisher for Shruthi for past 4 years.Ed said "Hey ,we know this would happen one day and that is no later than today"
She hugged him.Ed held her.After coffee,dinner and a lovely walk along the water front ,they departed.

Its 6 AM the next day morning.
Shruthi boarded the Middle East bound aircraft.And the flight was ready for taxing.
They were de-icing the flight.Anti-ice fluid splashed on the window.
She was watching it through the window and lapsed herself on to the lovely thoughts of Ed.

She was watching outside the window it was mizzling
Its been 40 min's and its a second coffee that she ordered.Was waiting to pounce on Ed
Ed came rushing down the bus.
"Dai evalo neram da wait panrathu"
"Mam.Am sorry.I know u get Tamil words when you are damn angry.Please am sorry.Please forgive me this time as you did for the past 786 times"
She said "Its been 1 hr dude.And did not inform Pat about this.Just sneaked out.Ohh my god.why am i doing this"
Its her nature and Ed knows this.She cant even act angry for more than 2 min's.
Ed smiled at her.She smiled back instant and tried hard to keep a mad face "No am supposed to be angry"
"Common you can even do that in your wildest dreams..mmm..what do you think i can do to make it up" said Ed.
She blushed.
Ed looked at her.His eyes powered and manful.And in no time kissed her lips.Before she could react and resist kissed her hard and stepped back.
"What are you doing" she stuttered and left the place.Boarded a bus and sat near the window.Rain started to intense outside.She smiled to herself ,her mobile alerted it read "Ed" calling.She knows he will call to make it up.

Mobile sounded and ceased her out of the dream.
It read "Sanjay" calling.
She picked it up "Hello"
Sanjay voiced "Hey SH..how are you..did you board the flight"
Shruthi said "Yeah. yeah its about to take off.How are you.Sorry couldn't email you" stameeringly she continued "and what is SH.."
Sanjay was telling something that she could'nt hear as the flight radio dominated
"At this time, we request that all mobile phones, pagers, radios and remote controlled toys be turned off for the full duration of the flight, as these items might interfere with the navigational and communication equipment on this aircraft"

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