lost 'Kiss'

I decided today is the day,i will tell her ,else i will die with lack of sleep and food.
Got out of the bed.Spent additional 30 mins in the bathroom.Dressed up in my favorite(lucky) blue shirt with thin silver stripes.Checked with my closet mirror,it said "you look handsome,Hareesh"

Mom had breakfast on the table.Ignored her and the food.Rushed and kick started my Bajaj Pulsar.
Hooked up the ear phone and browsed my iTunes and played "Hosaana - VinnaiThandi Varuvaya"

Off to work.

Workplace was void of people.Grave silence.Am i so early ?,checked my watch.
Oh my Gracious Lord  its only 8:30.I have never seen my workplace at this time.
Opened up my emails and a stinking one popped up right at my face.
It read"Appraisal Last remainder".Oh boy its appraisal day.I can't write anything,she is filled with in me,her thoughts.If allowed i will write up a beautiful appraisal about her,describing her awesome lovely figure.

She is the most beautiful one i have ever seen.Goddess.

After a very long time checked my watch again it showed 8:55.Thats the most exasperating 20 minutes in my life.Why on earth all the time keeping machine are running slow today.I went to the cafe and grabbed a hot cup of coffee.People started checking in.But not she.

"Dai Hareesh. Good morning".I heard Arun.
"Hi da" i said
"Machaa.I need some help" said arun
"Enna da" i shouted at him
"Can you help me with my appraisal" he replied
I controlled myself so hard and denied to approve my mind,soul and body which decided to 'pour the hot coffee over his ear.'

Ashok came in.He was all tired.
"Enna machi.You coming from gym" asked arun
"Dai adivanguva da" ashok yelled at him
"Machi..ennna achii" arun asked in (Vadivelu) accent.
"Had a running-race with Office bus today da machi" vented out ashok
"Not again" laughed out loud arun
"Dai Hareesh.Why are you looking so tensed.Dont worry Macha we can do appraisal together"
"Dai only thing that i hate most in life is this appraisal da" i replied in a unpleasant tone.

"Ok Arun lets call our onshore chipmunks" and they left the scene

It was 9:40 am.Got deep in to my crappy code that i have been working for a while.
Thats when, I felt the aroma.No need to validate its Divya,i looked over my bay.
Oh-my-god.She was dressed in my favorite one from her collections.The yellow salwar and the hair unleashed,thinnest gold chain encircling her beautiful neck.
Light glossy lipstick,often lipstick on women is considered to be distraction of her whole beauty,but my dear darling divya is an exception to it.She wearing the lipstick and with very limited smile for it puts me out of my normal being.Choosing a color for lips can reveal a women's personality,lipstick is bit like numerology or astrology.Divya was wearing a glossy semi naked one matching the natural color, i conclude she wanted others to consider her as a reserved personality but in real she isn't.

She smiled at people as she walked wishing them all.She walked looking at me and said "Good morning Hareesh",as my heart was rapidly trying to change its place.I was surrounded by musicians playing and singing "Engiruthu vanthayo ni..Adiye Adiye..enna enga ni kooti pora"

I keep asking these questions in the way she verbalizes my name
 -Did she invent it
 -Did my parents consulted her before naming me.

She pulled her chair and switched on her desktop located diagonal to mine.She started to twirl the gold chain slipping/sliding between her lips while the other hand fondling on keyboard.The best part is, at irregular intervals moving her hair that is so adamant of fall on her forehead.I could easily spend a decade watching that scene.

I decided.I will tell her right now.Stood up and went straight to her desk

"Haiyyee Hareesh" she seductively said.It was provocative.Yes she did say that in a seductive voice and anyone looking at her lips that just produced that sound (that may be a wrong statement for medical science student) have no option other than kissing them.
I tried to speak ,my vocal folds worked hard but still there was no sound.(veerum kathuthanga vandhuchu)
"Hey what are you staring at" said she
"Haan..Nothing..shall we dial in to the meeting" stammered me.
"Yeah i am waiting Hareesh" said she adjusting her dupatta.

We went into a conference room dialed in and handed over to Divya. She was explaining our project design to a group on the phone.I watched her lips,watched again.I was deeply lost to see that its alluringly moving in all co-ordinates and i really was not hearing what she saying to our onsite pals.

It was heavenly those lips.

Suddenly she stopped and asked "Haressh do you agree with that" and looked at me.
Her eyes spattered innocence mixed with lust and passion. Oh my god those lips.
At that moment I lost it ,the inner sense of control,i am no more civilized and not a gentleman anymore,my body moved close to her and with no further thoughts i kissed her deep , the lightening moment lasted for 20 seconds i would say 18 to be exact.

Silence.

"Hello Hareesh/Divya you guys there" speaker phone was shouting.She looked at me. I was frightened and shaking.She stood up and left the conference room.

minute after at the coffee shop.
"Macha,epdra,how can you..how this is possible" exclaimed ashok.
"This is case of sexual harassment and if she complains to HR you will be fired and you wont be able to find job anywhere " added arun.I was quiet and infact felt very uncomfortable.

Next Day.

I waited at my desk scared and anxious.This may be my last day as a fish in the Corporate pond.
Divya walked towards her desk.Myself,Arun and Ashok turned around to look at our monitors pretending to be engrossed in work.She came close and said "Good Morning Ashok Arun" and paused added "Good Morning Hareesh" and went to her desk.

"Machan en da oru reactionume ille..ennatha da kiss panna ni..ithella oru kissaa" muttered ashok.Arun giggled.One change i noticed that she did not have that provocative lipstick today.

Even though that gave me some kind of peace i was wondering what going on with-in her now.What happened to My first kiss,did it not create any impact on her,was it lost.
Divya sat on her chair looking at the monitor.

Years passed....

Divya came to work and sat on her chair looked at the monitor, as it was powering up she saw her face in it,and her lips.She smiled to herself and typed a message in her phone
"Hareesh reached work.I love you,have a great day" pressed send
"Hey honey,Great,was wondering how everyday you send this note at the same time :) " was the reply

Women will always continue to remember the first kiss even after men forget the last.

Sacred Steps - Again

She prayed.True from her heart and for her family.
She believed and was into her 50 th step.

She and her better-half living in an alien world of -15 deg C working hard to earn a better living for their kids in the Land of Dreams
All was well until their visa situations drastically changed and they were almost bound to get out of the country.

"You should have planned it well.Such things would have never happened if you decided to come back to your home country long back.Now you are spoiling your kids education,you invested a lot in overseas, now you will have to lose major portion of your hard earned savings" was the prevailing talks by the so called normal living beings.She lended her ears but with patience.

She completed her 100 th step.

She cried alone.Her relatives living abroad wanted her to regret for her mistakes, settle everything and come back.She was calm and denied them.

"am trying hard da.You remain cool please dear" he said
"i know abt you da.We will succeed for sure i am there for you" she replied.They consoled each other.
And she concealed all the pressure and pain she was weathering.She never wanted him to get perturbed. She never cried to him and lived with.She knows the pain that he is undergoing,the pain of getting things straight.The only goal for him to be with his little lovable family,fair enough.
She directed,supported,calmed and soothed him.

She was into her 150 th step.

He worked hard to find alternatives and tried by all means to get his Visa and residentship status worked out.But the pain and pressure that She was put into was atleast a million times more than his.

Life alway's give you two options,let go off you willpower or let go off your goals.She is determined she knows what to hold on to - her strong hope and belief.

She was into her 200 th step.

Every step she made was sacred.She believed that "Anjanayer" (Hindu god) exists and will help her for sure.And completed her 250th step around the Idol for that day.

For some it sounded as a "Stupid belief".
She refrained from them and continued her "Sacred belief".

PS:Inspired from one of my close friend's true life.Her true prayers were really answered and she/family are happily living the way they wanted it to be